Stay Outta My Way... I
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0 Comments Stay Outta My Way... I - 09-20-2005 18:54:12
I need a week to just fuck off and do NOTHING. And when I say NOTHING, I actually mean I want to do nothing but whatever the fuck I feel like doing at the moment whether that be kicking back in bed and eyeballing the ceiling, working on the computer trying to get rich somehow, drinking myself silly or whatever the fuck *I* want to do. The thing is, I feel like I'm loosing my fucking mind right now. Not like I haven't been here before. And I don't really want to complain because most of the world has it worse than me right now, but fuck if I feel like I can hold it together most of the time these days. "Moody" doesn't even begin to describe me at this point. And that's where the problem is. I have good friends around me most of the time that I don't want to be bitchy with. I have a cute blonde girl that means everything in the world to me that I don't want to snap at or make feel bad for any reason. It comes and goes so fast I can't keep up with it myself. One second I'm happy as can be and the next I'm trying to figure out how to explain to someone that the sound of them chewing their food is making me want to smash windows just to give myself something else to think about without sounding like an asshole? That all sounds overly dramatic now that I read it back. No less true though. It helps to write it down I guess. It always has, but most of the time I've written in journals that I end up trashing after I "get it all out", not putting it on the web for everyone to see. Anyway... I guess it's obvious I've got a lot on my mind these days. I'll survive. I always do. I am a lucky bastard after all. And I've got a good woman that makes me smile even if it does take a few seconds longer on some occasions. All I want to do is shoot photos and relax a little. Is that to much to ask? Soon you'll be able to pray for my soul along with all of my friends here... N/A
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